It seems my favorite person in the world has decided the world has more to offer him than I do.
How do I compete with the world?
I have strong anxiety. It's built up over the years, and I often let my mind wander into scary thoughts, like how many more people in this world are more talented than me, prettier than me, cooler, younger, or more interesting than me.
I just got back from a trip to a large city. There were so many cars on the road, so many different people in the mall. Who am I to think I have anything the world and its people don't already have? How do I compete with it? How do I find a calmness in its maze of thorny branches?
I am comforted by this verse:
John 16:33
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
If God has overcome the world, why should I have to?
He made me an individual with a specific, original mind and appearance. He chose me to create. That should be enough to value myself and my ideas.
I think that's also a reason I love space and NASA. It must be a bit relaxing and empowering to be able to look down and see the world, far away from all its troubles
Drinking less Coke would help my anxiety too. Haaaa
